Thursday, December 08, 2005
belinda?
she died, in other words. shes gone.
go find the new one.
i'd rather you be mean than love and lie
i'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
i'd rather take a blow at least then i would know
but baby don't you break my heart slow
12:38 AM
belindaa
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
X)
9:01 AM
belindaa
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
hahas. was looking through all my post.
and found out how stupid i can be sometimes since the beginning of the year.
hahaha.
like how many hundred times that i sad i will nv get my heartbroken anymore since the beginning of the year. and ended up in same thing again.
haha. and i how i was being insensitive by saying a squarish box is more impt than me.
and how badly i couldnt get over heartbreaks. hahahha.
felt really stupid.
but that were somethings that i really loved.
like how VONNE and me love each other so much. haha.
the fun days with ganesh and ALP.
and how we enjoyed bullying aaron lim from our class.
the first time ryan called me 'jie jie'.
some impt things that teachers shared.
how i missed jx went she went to malaysia.
how much i loved running.
haha. i was crazy.
such things only happend once.
and i dont wanna forget them.
so its all here. recorded on my blog. =))
10:38 AM
belindaa
i havent been blogging.
partly because i was lazy.
and bz with the os.
ok. today is the most crucial day.
AMATHS.
ahh.~ im so nervous.
i dont know if i can make it.
i just hope that i dont panic.
i guess it shld b ok lar.
i dont know.
after amaths today. i have another on thurs.
and then the last sci paper on then 22nd.
and im FREE. haha. x))
oh great. thanks ALP.
after u sending me ur contagious song.
im stuck on it.
its in my head now.
haha. thanks alot ALP.
i was soooo stupid ystday.
i thought i saw this very special person.
haha. and then ALP had to tell me his real identity.
the feeling totally SUCKS. ahh!
haha, oh well. i dont really care though. haha.
im not interested. haha.
ALP still can get over how someone died and left her chen jun ge alone. hahahha.
its so retarded. shes crazy.
oh well, haha. i love ALP anyway. haha.
im pretty nervous now.
didnt feel really good last night.
felt like vomitting and had a lil fever.
which was crazy. cuz it came out of nowhere. haha.
oh well. im fine now.
i'll just have to hope for the best later~
10:18 AM
belindaa
Monday, November 07, 2005
officially started the o level today.
was quite ok lar i guess.
thanks dada and everyone else who wished me good luck.
haha.
ss qns were a lil unexpected.
so thank god venice came along with it.
first time i decided to give all i got for ss.
haha. hope i do better. =)
slacking a lil now.
got to go soon. and get on with chem.
argh. i really dont know how am i goin to live through the chem paper.
a F9 for prelims is not gonna make me do well for the Os.
sucks. hope i remember some useful things for tmr.
its the only paper tmr. and wed would be english. the most impt one.
then it'll be phy. haha. dont know how am i gonna get through this either. haha.
wish me luck though. xp
6:30 PM
belindaa
Sunday, November 06, 2005
lazzzzyyyy
12:41 AM
belindaa
Thursday, November 03, 2005
havent been blogging~
haha.
bz. actually not really las.
more like lazy.
haha.
like who will read.
Os are less than in a weeks time.
i've never mugged like how i am mugging before.
hope i do better than prelims.
prelims was crap.
oh well. haha. im lazy to continue.
12:48 AM
belindaa
Friday, October 14, 2005
AHHHHH!!!!!
THIS IS IT.!
belinda,
you got to stop being sooooo ARGH.!
ok, stop being an ASS.
i guess what mr yeo said was correct.
no matter how over it was.
there are still some lil things that u cant get over off.
even if its like a couple of years ago.
haha. but i think i got over most of it.
ok. nvm. the point is.
sch has been like a waste of time.
i am study hard. but i dont know what for.
prelim sucked big time.
it was toatally crap.
if i got that for the Os. i prolly die. or smthing like that.
watched as told by ginger.
my all time fav poem from her.
i swear i can just hear it over and over again without being irrtated with it;
she chose to walk alone.
though others wondered why.
refused to look before her.
kept eyes cast upwards,
towards the sky.
she didn't have companions,
no need for earthly things.
only wanted freedom,
from what she felt were
uppet strings.
she longed to be a bird,
that she might fly away.
she pitied every blade of grass,
for planted they would stay.
she longed to be a flame,
that brightly danced alone.
felt jealous of the steam,
that made the air its only home.
some say she wished too hard.
some say she wished too long.
but we awoke one autumn day,
to find that she was gone.
the trees,
they say stood witness.
the sky refused to tell.
but someone who had seen it said
the story played out well.
she spread her arms out wide.
breathed in the break of dawn.
she just let go of all she held;
and then she was gone.
~And She Was Gone
By Ginger Foutley
were you ever so down.
that you wished you could just let everything go.
i had encounter with such feelings a couple of times.
but i guess deep down.
my heart just kept saying,
dont give up.
things come and go for a reason.
things happend for a reason.
mistakes are there for you to learn from.
i guess,
i'll just stay strong.
5:30 PM
belindaa
Sunday, October 09, 2005
i shall come back to blogging.
since i have loyal reader(s).
X)
the whole week has been pretty okay.
except for the fact that i know my prelim results will totally be unacceptable.
but what the heck.
im trying my best alr okay.
its not as if i've been slacking. haha. other than maple-ing lars.
those things havent been much on my mind lately.
i guess things cant really be forced.
i guess im just not good enough.
and since things havent been going well for me.
i think i shld just forget it.
its like its all my wishful thinkings.
so. yeah. i'll just leave it.
since jx darl is goin away for a HOLIDAY tmr. till friday.
i guess theres no one for me to play with. haha. xp
so i'll prob be mugging.
i think i'll be goin for more of the night classes sinced it really helped on friday.
haha. now i feel that i soo love mrs low. shes sooo funny. and sweet.
it was her son's bday. and she had to be in sch at night to teach us horrible students.
chem seems so much better. i used to dread goin for chem.
like 'chem sucks'.
ha! but not anymore. haha.
things havent been good for my darls lately.
so wanna tell you guys that;
you all can de. stand up and be strong.
i'll always be there for u all de.
you all know it. =))
love you guys lots.
mmuacks!!
played pool today.
hahas. today soooo many people. got 12 of us. haha.
the place like our house like that.
we so noisy.
haha. haha. i won yong leng.! yaya la.! haha.
see.. haha. i won~ haha.
lalala~
then went mugging with ping ping. jer jer. and hl.
hahas. love my ping so much.
oh ya. people! if you all go macs. take note of the advertisment on the tv de.
got one is the chicken de.
VERY CUTE.
hahas. me and ping alr know how to master the dance.
and a part of the chicken say the things.
sooo cute lehs. wear specs de. haha.
hahas. this is his pic.
http://www.animated-news.com/archives/05-chick-little.jpg
he so cute. wear specs de. haha.
hehs. i think i dont want keep dog le. haha. i keep chicken.
im chatting with deebs now.
haha. i so wanna be back at america.
haha. i was there like what. when i was pri 4?
when u dont know a single thing.
haha. i cant really rememeber the time there.
hahas. although i was there for a whole mth.
haha. all i remembered was jack the dog.
i ran like the WHOLE BACKYARD cuz it was chasing after me.
i was such a loser. haha.
but now. im not afraid of dogs. i love them!
especially ski ski. =)
im dead.
totally broke.
pool and shopping has been making holes in my pocket.
haha. this prevents me from eating.
which is good.
is high time i lose weight.
so ping, we can do this. haha.
10:54 PM
belindaa
Saturday, October 01, 2005
for once. im home early.
went to do a lil shopping with my mama.
im really tired.
oh well, anyway.
tot abt this in the mrt on the way home.
belinda this is what you should do:
1. never believe anything people say. except. your darls.
2. do ever be so naive again.
3. wtf. just study can.!
4. please stop using the phone.
5. CONCENTRATE.
6. dont ever give a shit abt anything anymore. unless if it concerns your darls.
7. dont hate you chem teacher anymore and just try to pass bloody chemistry.
8. stop spending so much money.
9. stop using the com for so long.
10. THERES NO SUCH THING AS LOVE. =)
yes. belinda. pls remember.
okay. to finish this off. i officially annouce that. this blog. is temporary gonna be stopped.
i'll not blog anymore for the time being.
thanks for being such loyal readers. hahas. (if there is any) =/
7:57 PM
belindaa
Monday, September 26, 2005
=/
im stressed. very. very. =/
someone. make me smile.
anyone. just make me smile.
5:52 PM
belindaa
Sunday, September 25, 2005
just got home.
im starting to feel the intensity alr.
im panicky now.
its like i feel like theres still so much that i dont know.
and theres like a limit my brain can take.
im dead. totally.
11:22 PM
belindaa
Friday, September 23, 2005
came back from school not long ago.
had bio lesson aft my ss paper.
the paper was crap.
i wasted my time stuyding for it.
im having a bad headache now.
SUCKS. =/
HAVE TUITION LATER ON.
stress.
i so wish this will be over soon.
so dont feel like goin to tuition.
but have to. AHH!!!!!
oh well, sch sucked.
since the very morn.
when i have to come out of the car and see...
____________________________________________
i decided to look back at all my posts.
some things has been like really meaningful,
while some has totally lost its meaning.
like how i was crazily in love.
and how my heart was broken once again.
over and over.
its like how many times i said that i wouldnt fall i love anymore.
how many times did i said it was not worth it.
isnt it ironic? like how much times i got my heart broken.
i was naive. i believed in everything thats was sweetly said to me.
isnt it ironic? like when i said life doesnt frighten me at all
but all i ever do when someone wants to step in. is to say im afraid.
julien said,
ber, its so over.
why do u have to sill dwell on it?
THE PROBLEM IS.
i dont believe its was just like that.
i expected more from this.
how fustrated i was when i was being ignored.
how i cried in the middle of no where.
how i broke down in school.
how fragile i was.
how much i didnt want to give up.
but i couldnt hold on. i knew i couldnt hold on myself.
one-sided isnt gonna work.
thats when i decided to let go.
u didnt love me. thats the conclusion.
ive been pretty unreasonable on some stuff.
like how slping is more important.
like how a box squarish box is so much more important to me.
i should have understood that different people have different piorities in life.
i was selfish. all i ever did was think about myself. =/
but i've learnt. different people have different objectives in life.
because of you;
i don't know how to let anyone else in.
6:10 PM
belindaa
Thursday, September 22, 2005
stayed home today to mug. =)
well, something came across my mind.
and i decided to say it before i forget.
i dont know abt you.
but have you ever felt that u had this a special connection with someone;
like a total stranger.
i dont really know how to decribe these feelings into words.
everything seems to be planned.
aiya. dunnoe how to say lars.
theres just this special connection.
but i think such thing doesnt last.
i've lost faith in such thing.
i used to believe in love.
but, aft much that has happend.
i stopped.
because of you;
I find it hard to trust not only me,
but everyone around me.
because of you;
i am afraid.
8:24 PM
belindaa
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
happy birthday to me! =)
hahas. thanks everyone. jx, hui li, aaron, liping, ju, wenna, VONNE, ruzaini, cheryl etc...
for the presents and wishes. hahas.
totally slacked today. no class AT ALL.
shld have just skipped sch today.
haha. did totally nth productive at all.
except haha. having fun.
aft sch. waited for jx and hl to come over.
had cake. hl bought for me chocs. and jx brought back teddy.
hahas. missed teddy so much. totally touched to see teddy.
went to eat. took pics. rent a book.!
fun~
11:16 PM
belindaa
Monday, September 19, 2005
happy birthday wenna. =))
okay. this is it.
im now trying to spend the last 30 mins or so of my 15 year old life meaningfully.
by doing some recollections.
to tell the truth i've never been a nice person.
never been a good friend. and never been a good daughter.
ive never done anything to make my parents proud.
my results are always a borderline kind of thing.
or sometimes a fail.
did really bad this year - the most crucial year.
well, i dare to say that i tried being a good friend.
but somehow just not good enough. and also. i didnt know what is being a good friend.
being a good friend.
does it mean when shes does something really bad. like illegal. you just keep let her doing it.
or should u report her.
does it mean when shes has a wrong way of handling things. wrong attitude. you just let her be and spoil her? or you try to tell her what is wrong.
so.
what exactly is being a good friend?
i had my heart broken very badly this year. but i hadrcome it.
and im glad that this person made an effort to wish me happy birthday.
which is nice.
okay. back to the point.
i just wish that rest of the year would be better.
11:20 PM
belindaa
Friday, September 16, 2005
i havent been updating.
had been really busy.
just managed to catch a lil breathe with jx darl. wx and johnathan.
went to play pool.
but came home and headed to tuition after that.
for the week i have been heading to macs without fail.
study. yes.
i've been really caught up with work lately.
dont think that i'll be blogging as much as i used to.
havent been playing games anymore. dont have time.
sucks. what to do.
o levels. =/
sheesh.
im getting pretty numb to things happening around me.
am very tired with petty squabbles of humans.
so i decieded to let them be.
i dunnoe if its just me being ignorant.
or im just tired of everything.
everyone has a level of tolerance.
once it reaches, thats it.
i give up.
im really tired. tired out of everything.
being hurt over and over again.
so i decided to just let everything go.
my life now. is my darls. jx and hl.
not forgetting lp and ju.
and my studies.
11:42 PM
belindaa
Saturday, September 10, 2005
yes. i am still up.
play gunz.
hahas. level up by 2 today.
so that makes me level 9.
whahas.
not bad. i started in less that a week ago.
wahahs. im addicted to it alr.
have been staying up late for gunz.
hahas.
2:43 AM
belindaa
Friday, September 09, 2005
am very lazy to update.
haha.
been busy. its either mugging or gunz.
wahhas.
im addicted to the game. yes. haha.
LOVE IT.
have been in sch since 7.30am today. till 12.
maths maths maths.
i was slpy for a moment.
but it wasnt for long.
since i have people like ping sitting beside me.
hahas. how much peace can i get?
oh well, have to go for tuition soon. =/
6:37 PM
belindaa
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
goin to be late again for the mugging session.
still wanna make this post anyway.
im down with a horrible flu bug that wouldnt go away.
im so VERY tired.
study study study.
hahas. and also. gunz online.
wahhas.
have been mugging every night.
got to go soon. AHH.
i hope this is OVER soon.
feel so tired. =/
I NEED A BREAK.
5:48 PM
belindaa
Saturday, September 03, 2005
back. from mugging.
did morning chores.
swept and mopped the entire house.
hahas. not as if my house is very big lars. but STILL.
haha. tiring okay.!
i miss my LOONG hair. hahas.
cant wait for it to GROW. ARGH.!!
hahas. oh well. =/
went to yishun with dada.
mugged. finished 2 papers. wahhas.
so proud of myself. =))
9:05 PM
belindaa
Friday, September 02, 2005
was thinking about it.
did i do the right thing?
im sorry; but i cant accept your love.
its complicated.
i dunnoe what im feeling now.
sorry that i hurt you. =/
ive been really hot tempered.
it sucks. ah.! but whatever.
i dunnoe la. just feel stress.
so much thing that i havent do.
its really irritating. cause of how distractions can get into you.
like NOW at this moment.
although im just home from tuition,
i know that i shld be preparing for tmr's sci tuition.
this sucks.
10:01 PM
belindaa
Thursday, September 01, 2005
its already september the first.
omg. this sucks.
time passes. really fast.
went to jx hse ysterday.
hahas. had so much fun. =))
eat fried rice. nice nice.
took pics. wahhas. =))
play play. hahas.
although some things happend like really fast.
just want to tell you. im sorry.
but this kind of thing is cannot force de. =)
_______________________________
today is the 1st of Sep.
i still can remember exactly one year ago.
what happend.
the happiest moment of my life.
me & you; xiong xiong.
i hope you still remember.
maybe you forget le.
but i havent.
11:56 AM
belindaa
Friday, August 26, 2005
went to some restuarant last night for dinner.
the food was okay.
then bought mooncakes.
which were really cute.
love the packaging and they are mini mooncakes.
im such a sucker for cute packaging. haha.
with various flavours. haha.
dont bear to eat it yet. =/
4:37 PM
belindaa
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
okay.
school was OKAY.
haha.
this is the first ever time ever.
4/7 is made being to like stayed back late.
and no one complained.
NO ONE. haha.
well, this is how it goes.
we had bio prep exam today.
mr collins came in instead of mr neo.
cause mr neo was on mc.
so we had the exam till 4.30.
and we had a lil talk with mr collins abt mrs low;
the crazy chem teacher.
ok, BACK TO THE POINT.
so, he asked us if we had anything to ask him about physics.
so he did a lil revision with us.
he has this special kind of humour in him.
which is pretty cool.
i mean like.
after so many mths of goody mr yup.
haha. its cool to have someone new once in awhile.
i kinda developed this liking from physics. haha.
i guess everyone enjoyed the mini lesson by mr collins.
had fun during lit.
did some kind of drama.
reading aloud. and a lil acting.
actually what mr yeo says is very true.
when u read something. tone is very important.
only from the tone then we'll know the mood of the story and stuff.
we will be able to comprehen better.
i guess mr yeo is really on smart fella.
who makes LOTS OF SENSE.
although he is unpredictable sometimes.
which again is scary.
=/
8:12 PM
belindaa
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
phew.
took a break from the crazy bio revision.
have bio prep tmr.
argh. im so dead.
well, this is the best i can do.
haha. theres a drastic improvement in my room.
EVERYTHING IS NEAT.
VERY NEAT.
im serious.
haha. i spent 2 hrs of last night filing everything up.
have a great sense of achievement.
i finally have space to study. haha.
used to have my table fiiled with papers.
and shared have of my bed with my books.
haha. NOW I HAVE IT ALL TO MY OWN.
no more sharing with papers.
8:23 PM
belindaa
Monday, August 22, 2005
"i live my life for you"
girls,
if any moron tells you this.
ask that person to go to hell.
and that doesnt make any sense at all.
its crap;
no one lives for anyone else but themselves. =)
school; sucked as usual.
did the same old thing.
was bored to death.
but then again.
lit was the best among all.
haha. although i thought i was so dead before stepping into lit class.
cause i didnt finish my essays.
didnt had the mood during the weekend to do it.
was slacking all the way.
and was trying to pack up my room.
yes. belinda has decided to become a more organized person.
oh well, at least i tried. but it doesnt really look neat.
in fact. its messier. haha. because..
i kinda like took everything out. and i have like papers everywhere.
until today; im not done with them. haha.
its august the 22nd.
exactly a mth and a day till the prelims.
my chem is really CMI (cannot make it).
yes, thats how bad i am.
i thought after mastering how to balance an eqn i thought everything would be fine after that.
but NO, i know all the concepts and stuff.
but when i see application qns. i go BLANK.
haha. guess due to the lack of practice.
I CANT HELP IT.
i have no whatsoever interest in chem and of cause the every crazy chem teacher.
im doing better in phy now. but what is the use when im doing chem and phy as combined science.
oh well, guess im left with bio to save me.
my both maths. goin down the drain.
AH.! im goin through this mental block.
I JUST CANNOT REMEMBER.
well, its my fault.
havent been practicing enough.
well, i least i made an effort to increase my time on maths by 2 hours. haha.
lit is ok. but if i dont do something on ss soon. im dead. DEAD.
chinese. haha. although had a B3 for Os. im still not happy. I WANT A 'A'! so, haha. im retaking it.
eng. well, just have to keep writing and reading.
what else. =/
nth major alr. haha.
maybe thats all.
7:34 PM
belindaa
Saturday, August 20, 2005
love the song by pepper;
give it up.
its been awhile since i saw your face,
got to say that i'm happy to see you come arpund my place.
now i think we've talked about it.
and i think i know whats comiing up next.
lets put our minds away.
and let our hormones do the rest.
does it seem obscene,
does it seem like a bad thing.
well if it is i'm sorry miss.
but you know, im just nineteen.
so dont be afraid when my pants start to leak.
you know damn well,
i'm in my sexual peak.
why dont you have some dirty hot sex with me.
it aint like i'm askin you to give it up for free.
we can start it right now.
now when u look down dont be misled.
i found my life's purpose and its getting up stairs into your bed.
well theres the phone girl fo right ahead.
im sure u rahter be with you are stupid boyfriend instead.
hahas.
such a happy sad song.
10:49 AM
belindaa
Thursday, August 18, 2005
didnt blog.
was lazy.
got caught by the same old person again.
socks. AH!
annoying.
just thought of something.
people have different feelings.
and different views at different point of time in their lives.
like. when you are in love.
you suddenly become a person with a very positive attitude.
you just love everything around you.
love all the things that are happening around you.
you never get fustrated easily.
and so on..
you have this really sweet thing in you;
when u are in LOVE.
i remember.
the silly smiles i would suddenly give michy and jx out of nowhere.
laughing all the time. i could just keep on smiling.
i would start singing my fav song. over and over and over again.
i was really silly.
but i didnt care.
i was in the first stage of being in love.
im sure everyone of us are like tt.
ok back to the point.
so when you are in love everything seems really colourful.
but when you are out of love.
everything becomes dull and your world doesnt have much colour anymore.
everything seems ugly and horrible.
this is SO typical.
WHY? =/
my world now.
is like a jar of m&ms.
filled with diff colours and flavour.
i dont really know what im feeling now.
a lil of sadness still, due to the couple of heartbreaks.
the recent one, very heartbreaking.
thought i cldnt get over it.
but still did.
with a lil happiness;
thanks to my darls and dada.
i'm awaiting for something new. and worth for me to once again treasure.
11:06 PM
belindaa
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
oh well, =/
just came back from eng oral.
guess its okay.
OKAY only.
wasnt fantastic.
i was like talking to myself while waiting.
haha. poor ganesh.
have to bear with my irritating behaivour.
was caught by mr shafie.
1. socks.
2. nv tuck in shirt.
3. nv greet teacher.
what the hell.
haha. i admit.
socks and shirt. haha. my fault.
but not greeting teacher?!
what the hell. HELLO. there was a bunch people who didnt greet too.
argh.
haha. oh well. whatever.
i was just sockless for maths period. haha.
freaky. sheesh.
oh well. xp
4:49 PM
belindaa
Saturday, August 13, 2005
happy bday papa. =))
havent been blogging.
was extra lazy.
hahas. had been a very happy mood.
haha. and yes. im studying.
wuhoo~ a B3 for chinese o level.
wahhas.! i cant believe it.
this is crazy man.
well, goin to retake it though.
so, i hope that i'll be able to do better.
XD.
6:55 PM
belindaa
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
didnt blog ystday.
although i was like online for the entire night.
haha. lazy.
was chatting with a couple of people.
and talking to my auntie sitting rest just beside of me on the other com.
haha. new song that i love.
harajuku girls. by gwen stefani.
hahas. its totally a GREAT song.
catchy. haha.
had some kind of family day ystday.
was pretty cool.
we dont really do that all the time.
but ystday was cool.
played mahjong. haha.
was pretty fun. haha.
was chatting with papa all the way till 1am plus.
and then me and autie cooked some noodles to eat.
only slpt at 3. haha.
11:19 AM
belindaa
Monday, August 08, 2005
i love smiles.
REAL smiles.
its really horrible to see fake smiles.
like being forced to smile that kinda things.
so,
i'll never force anyone to smile at me unless that person wants to.
was reflecting.
and felt that i was being somehow a horrible person.
i always go; MUZ SMILE AH.!
i'll never want to see a 'forced smile'.
its gotta be natural. =)
oh oh.
thanks joy. =))
have you ever wondered.
y you exist in this world.
why arent you this other person,
why you have to be you.
hahas. these are really qns i dont think anyone can answer.
i've always wondered.
why are things the way they are and not the other way.?
why do things have they happend the way it did?
=/
why do people have to go through the pain of love.
why is loving SO hard.
why is being true SO hard?
being true as not only in relationships.
but also. friendships.
have you ever wondered.
why do i even have to be here.
wldnt the world be the same without a single me?
so whats the point?
5:10 PM
belindaa
Sunday, August 07, 2005
thanks everyone. =))
michy, jiexi, joy, papa, dada and even tessa.
haha. =)) i'm fine now.
woots. xD
had fun ysterday.
haha. with michy, jiacong and clement.
haha. cle is one freaking funny guy man.
haha. but aww. hes so sweet. love his girlfriend to the max.
willing to wait for her sooo long~.
haha. must jia you.!!
got a haircut.
yes.!
hahas. this opens a new begining for me.
i'm almost over you now. =)
12:16 PM
belindaa
Friday, August 05, 2005
this is it.
im able to take the blow.
im fine now. =))
hahas.
sorry for freaking some people out. =/
like the ones who were really shocked to see me cry in class ystday.
oh well.
im fine.
thanks to my darls especially. =)
sorry. i was suppose to be the strong one for you guys.
this time i failed.
but oh well,
im strong again now.
its no point for me to go on.
he doesnt love me anyway. =/
this will just be kept in the bottom of my heart. =)
i loved you.
4:48 PM
belindaa
Thursday, August 04, 2005
didnt had time to update last night.
reached home late.
horrible day. =/
its official.
its the end.
this sucks.
oh well, i just have to live with that.
was really lucky.
when i got that sms. i was on the way to find my 2 darls.
was in verge of tears while walking. and when i see them.
i started crying.
HA!
thanks darls. =))
you guys were really sweet.
love you 2 alot.
we were crazy last night.
then went to the USUAL SWING.! love it.!
missed that place a million.
been a LOONG time since i went there.
met up with joy.
swinged a lil.
felt dizzy a lil.
talked a lil.
shes my swinging partner. =)
we talk pretty much touchy stuff.
like human nature and stuff.
broke down again in sch. =/
gosh. im so weak now.
oh well, went to the swing again today after sch. =))
wasnt in a good mood.
yes. again with JOY.
and yen ling. =)
had fun. talking.
me and joy were like talking again.
haha. more abt life.
swinging and feeling again dizzy after that.
HA! the bus journey home was horrible.
was goin to vomit in no time. haha.
shaky bus. =/
had a lil drama with michy in sch today.
but oh well, we made up. =))
love her and jx lots.
no matter what.
was talking to joy.
even if people are like bff (best friends forever)
there are still some things abt them that u dont like.
but you learn to compromise.
because you love them. A LOT. =))
8:31 PM
belindaa
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
just came back from eng prep. =/
was ok la.
didnt like all the topics.
did the one on laughter.
was told to write it as a narrative.
so did it anyway.
wasnt that fantastic.
just about a small town.
that had only a sch.
so all the children from the town went there to study.
every morn its the children who would fill the air with laughter.
and then one day.
was the short circuit and the sch had an explosion.
all the children died. and.
no more laughter ever since.
well, if i could choose.
i prob write laughter in a diff way;
like. laughter is a way of expression.
there could be true laughter;
true joy.
and 'fake' ones.
even how sad you are.
sometimes you still bring urself to laugh.
because, hey.
when your heart is broken.
you gotten stand.
its not the end of the world.
and whats more you have other people who really care for you.
i laugh not really because im really happy.
i laugh because this is how i express.
people laugh for diff reasons.
good or bad.
funny laughter?
sacrastic laughter?
evil laughter?
sweet laughter?
arent they all laughters?
i admit. im really heart broken.
but. im not giving up.
i dont believe that things will just end this way.
how can feelings fade so fast.
and omg. my heart has nv been broken like that for a LOOONG time.
and i said before.
if u were lying to me from the start.
if you were acting from the start.
i hope you'll just continue.
i wish to live in this world of my dreams.
of what i wish things could have been.
wx once said i was a bimbo.
or was it a stupid bimbo.
the stupid just emphasize on my stupidity.
i guess its really true.
i am a bimbo.
i dont know how to stop being bimbo-ish.
anyway. had a great lit lesson today.
learnt something really important.
LANGUAGE IS POWER.
if you are good at it. you can use it as a weapon.
this really make sense.
mr yeo is such a great person.
he shares meaningful things to us.
which really is PRODUCTIVE.
this is what teacher shld teach.
5:36 PM
belindaa
yes. it was very short.
i dont understand y it hurts so much.
my heart hasnt been broken in a LOONG time.
since 11 mths ago.
when that drama happended.
but it has now.
i guess,
i'll stand and be strong.
jx and michy, dun worry kks? =))
but i wont deny the fact that i still love him.
5:08 AM
belindaa
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
aHH!
this is so ANNOYING.
argh. what the hell.
well, WHATEVER.
broken heart again =/
well. it sucks.
HELLO?!!
WASNT EVERYTHING GOIN FINE.
WELL, ONCE AGAIN.
BELINDA LEE. YOU ARE SO STUPID.
TIME AND TIME AGAIN.
YOU HAVE TO ALWAYS BELIEVE PEOPLE.
YOU HAVE TO.
ARGH. WHAT THE FUCK.
THIS IS SO BLOODY ANNOYING.
ITS REALLY FUSTRATING.
I DONT EVEN KNOW WHATS HAPPENING.
ARGH.
haha. michy didnt go sch today.
jx too. =/
well, met michy after sch.
slacked at the same place.
and we were talking.
haha. i was talking about how i love to die young.
you dont have to suffer old age.
dont have to have wrinkled and yellowish skin.
dont have to worry much.
haha. and how i would die young.
most probably be like taking pills to die.
i dont want to be knocked by a car.
it'll be really bloody and ugly.
dont want to jump down the building cause its goin to hurt ALOT.
but then again. by the time.
wldnt there be someone i love very much?
wld i bear to die and leave that person.
at this moment. y not?
haha. prob because there isnt really someone who really LOVES me.
guess its because of my character.
i dont say i love yous and stuff.
i dont really show much.
thats my character.
i dont show my care and concern much to people.
i show with actions.
i dont say. cause i find it pointless.
because all SAYS and no DOS doesnt really prove anything.
i just understood that for the lesson i have learnt. from 17 July 2005 to today, 02 August 2005.
i believed you. and wish to still. but...
this is really depressing. and ah HA.
im starting to eat ALOT again.
stuffing myself.
symptoms of depression. =/
4:48 PM
belindaa
Monday, August 01, 2005
it was michy's bday yesterday.!!
=)) haha.
had a GREAT time. haha.
haha. im SO red.
due to excess tanning. =/
haha. i look like a lobster.
a COOKED lobster.
haha. it hurts everywhere!
my skin is peeling. argh. haha.
3:04 PM
belindaa
Saturday, July 30, 2005
*screams*
AHH.!!
i feel like an idiot.
sheesh.
like what the hell is this man.
i so fucking give up.
12:15 PM
belindaa
theres a reason for you to hate someone.
but its hard to explain why you love someone. =/
woke up like early.
goin to get on to harry potter.
have to mug again though.
lots of test coming out.
sheesh.
6:06 AM
belindaa
Friday, July 29, 2005
i dont know if you watched the mtv.
by kiss that is titled 'because i'm a woman'.
its korean.
its really touching.
had to write a compo today.
topic: touched
didnt think i wrote very well.
this made me think of the mtv.
but i didnt write it down though.
i wrote about michy and jx. =)
how much i love them.
well, anyway.
the mtv.
was about a guy.
who sacrficed his eyes to a girl.
he gave the one he loved his eyes.
the girl had an accident and had some chemical poured in her eye.
sweet right?
hahas. was at the verge of tears.
not like it was really intense or anything.
although this is totally made up.
but i believe.
haha. tt such things happend.
when u totally love someone very very much.
i think my mum or dad would give me their eyes.
maybe even ah kong and ah ma will too.
cause they love me very much.
hehs.
dont think anyone else will.
haha.
would you give me your eye?
took a walk home.
ahh.
i still cant figure it out!!
anyway,
had a quick chat with deb this morn.
ahh! i hate the time difference. makes it so difficult to have a chat.
but well, cant help it.
oh oh. another really good song.
its from a taiwan series.
but its in english.
the song is 'i owe you'.
this is how it goes,
You believe,
That i've changed your life forever.
And you'll never gonna to find another somebody like me.
And you wished you had more than just a lifetime.
To give back all i've given you.
And thats what you believe.
That i owe you.
The sunlight in the morning.
And the the nights of all these loving.
That time cant take away.
And i owe you.
More than life.
More than ever.
I know its the sweetest debt that i ever have to pay.
I'm amazed.
When you say its me you lived for.
You know that when i'm holding you.
You right where you belong.
And my love,
I cant help but smile with wonder.
When you tell me all i've done for you.
Cause I owe you the sunlight in the morning
And the nights of all this loving that time can't take away.
And I owe you more than life,
now more than ever.
I know that it's the sweetest debt I'll ever have to pay.
its really nice.
6:03 PM
belindaa
Thursday, July 28, 2005
back to blog.
was slacking.
so. have to mug tonight. =/
was watching then tv and came across this advertisment.
the crazy frog album. YUCKS. totally HORRIBLE.
like what the hell. doesnt make sense.
and the frog is so NOT cute.
NOT AT ALL.
like EWW.
okay. anyway.
went to www.sparksnotes.com
quite interesting webby.
you are like able to get like notes of EVERYTHING.
used it to study a lil on my lit stuff.
was thinking about some stuff.
like how things can be really ARGH-ISH.
you know tt it was going to turn bad.
but you just want to go for it anyway.
i knew it so well. AHH.!!!!!
i hope im not correct abt this. =/
i want this to go well.
7:39 PM
belindaa
just got home. =/
had tuition last night.
walked all the way from central to home.
hahas. took abt 30mins.
wasnt as bad as i thought.
and i wasnt the first time i did tt.
reach home abt 10.15pm.
was REALLY tired.
so slept right after i got home.
and after all i wasnt really in a good mood.
so sleeping is the best.
i really dont know what is happening.
but well, i'll just let it be. =/
got this really interesting from mr yeo again
so here is goes,
its so called the Paradoxical Commandments.
People are illogical, unreasonable and self-centered.
love them anyway.
If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish unlterior motives.
do good anyway.
If you are successful, you will win false friends and true enemies.
succeed anyway.
The good you do will be forgotten tomorrow.
do good anyway.
Honesty and frankeness make you vulnerable.
be honest and frank anyway.
The biggest men and women wuth the brightest idea can be shot down by the smallest men and women with the smallest mind.
think big anyway.
People favour underdogs but follow only top dogs.
fight for a few underdogs anyway.
What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight.
build anyway.
People Really need help but may attack you if you do help them.
help people anyway.
Give the world the best you have and you'll get kicked in the teeth.
give the world the best you have anyway.
~Kent M. Keith
this is really something that makes HUGE sense.
something to think about huh?
3:49 PM
belindaa
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
well,
just tried making a new template for my blog.
doesnt look that good though. =/
well..
anway,
the first 3 lines.
is actually take from a poem.
life doesnt frighten me.
by Maya Angelou.
according to mr yeo,
shes a really good writer.
well, i guess so too.
heres how it goes;
shadows on the wall
noises down the hall
life doesnt frighten me at all
bad dogs barking loud
big ghost in a cloud
life doesnt frighten me at all.
mean old Mother Goose
lions on the loose
they dont frighten me at all
dragons breathing flame
on my counterpane
that doesnt frighten me at all.
i go boo
make them shoo
i make fun
way they run
i wont cry
so they fly
i just smile
they go wild
life doesnt frighten me at all.
tough guys in a fright
all alone at night
life doesnt frighten me at all
panthers in the park
strangers in the dark
no, they dont frighten me at all.
that new classroom where
boys all pull my hair
kissy lil girls
with their hairs in curls
they dont frighten me at all.
dont show me frogs and snakes
and listen for my scream
if im afraid at all
its only in my dreams.
i've got a magic charm.
that i keep up my sleeve
i can walk the ocean floor
and never have to breathe
life doesnt frighten me at all
not at all
not at all
life doesnt frighten me at all.
~ Maya Angelou
well, have to write an essay on 'does life frighten me?'
i guess it does a lil.
you dont really now whats like gonna happen in the future.
like tomorrow or the day after.
cause unexpected things happen all the times.
like NOW.
like things were goin okay.
and then suddenly ARGH.
or maybe.
then again.
am i being miss lil paranoid again? =/
took a lil walk home.
took like 89 and then like stopped on stop later.
was walking really slowly.
didnt know where i was walking.
nearly got lost in blocks.
was thinking.
reflecting.
i didnt think i did anything wrong.
except from being a lil paranoid.
cant really help it though.
6:38 PM
belindaa
Monday, July 25, 2005
ah.!
just had a maths prep. argh.
was so DIFFICULT.
like what the hell.
AH.! whatever.
argh.
5:36 PM
belindaa
Sunday, July 24, 2005
went to watch the ndp rehearsals with gg darl.
hahas.
fireworks were great. haha.
before that. i did SOME maths in the MRT. haha.
we walked like all over the place. hahas.
didnt how to like go to the green sector.
then me and gg went to the esplanade.
I WANNA WATCH CORRINNE MAY'S CONCERT.
ah.! hahas. its $25.
argh.!!
showed angie the FABULOUS choc bar. haha.
we are so GOIN there when we have the $$.
hahas.
we were so bored during the show.
hahas. we took pictures.
did silly stuff.
laughing.!
and angie. took videos of me.
haha.
even after the show in the mrt.
haha. EVERYONE WAS LIKE STARING AT ME.
and gg just kept taking.
haha.
then we went to mac and eat. haha.
made 2 advertisment for mac in by video.
haha.
11:03 AM
belindaa
Friday, July 22, 2005
HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIONG XIONG. =)
hope you have fun today.
anyway, been wanting to write this since last night;
i was sitting at macs last nite.
studying.
and then there was a father, daughter and son. sitting just right beside my table.
i guess they bought happy meal because there was a toy.
the boy was SO excited.
he wanted to open it himself. but his dad wuldnt let him.
and opened it for him.
i know this is no biggy.
but,
see lil things parents do for their kids?
worth thinking about huh?
anyway,
just came home from ss prep exam.
wasnt as diff as i tot it was.
but dont think i'll do will either.
well, we just have to see when the results come back.
this five days had totally been CRAZY.
prep exam. prep exam. prep exam.
so will be the rest of this week.
have a-math in sch tml. in the morn.
and then have bio on sunday. =/
argh.!
but well, ITS JUST FOR THE NXT FEW MTHS.
i just have to bear with it.
4:49 PM
belindaa
Thursday, July 21, 2005
haha.
ITS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I UPDATED.
HAD BEEN BZ.
prep exams and stuff.
AHH!
who has prep exam EVERYDAY for a WHOLE week STRAIGHT.!
except for the paper that has the same fate as me.
haha.
5:20 PM
belindaa
Saturday, July 16, 2005
first of all,
i want to thank all the kind people whom left me a get well soon msg on my tag.
hahas. thanks guys.
didnt know tt there are acually people reading my blog other than JOY.
hahas. only JOY reads my blog.
like this song by oasis.
haha. knew this song through my cousin.
she always sings a particualr line all the time. haha.
have PHY prep exam on monday.
i better do well.
trying to study all my sec 3 topics during the weekend.
so gotta start mugging later.
erm. SOON.
i HAVE to do WELL.
i being a lil like a freak.
im always stuck at home.
haha. because i always tell myself that i have to study.
and i will study.
normally. i end up just studying a lil. and then thats it.
im trying to find that motivation to make me study.
so im slowly picking it up.
ITS JUST ABT 3 MTHS AWAY.
theres not much time left.
argh.
10:29 AM
belindaa
Thursday, July 14, 2005
argh.
still coughing.
so annoying.
WHEN WILL IT EVER STOP.!
6:03 PM
belindaa
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADA.! =))
hehs.
had the MOST tiring day in sch today.
didnt finish till 6.
sheesh.
had eng after sch. and then bio.
so stressful.
argh.
am so tired.
later still muz chiong.
gonna be mugging like crazy.
the Os are getting nearer and nearer.
im so dead.
well, i'll juz do my best.
hehs. =D
8:04 PM
belindaa
Saturday, July 09, 2005
gosh.
medicine really sucks.
i still can feel a lil bit of taste in my mouth.
horrible.
throat hurts like hell.
9:49 PM
belindaa
juz for your info.
the previous post was done my my cousin.
*coughs*
had a high fever ystday.
went to see the doc,
because i was forced to.
doc said it was a throat infection.
hahas.
i guess it was because of the goreng pisang, logans, rambutans and mangosteens.
wasnt drinking enough water too.
went over to my cousin's house to stay.
was really tired. guess because it is the medicine. =/
oh ya. decided to drop jap for awhile.
but sheesh.
im llike tt close to the next level.
guess i have to continue nxt year then. =/
11:54 AM
belindaa
hello I am kaPPy, the almighty cool one yes!
7:33 AM
belindaa
Thursday, July 07, 2005
back from tuition.
sheesh. =/
tired.
was having slight fever.
argh.
but im fine.
hahas.
juz kept ah-chooing and cough.
am tired.
lazy to continue....
i shall stop here. hahas.
this is such a lame post. whahas.
9:16 PM
belindaa
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
lalas.
hahas. back to sch for the week again.
PE was okay.
was HOT. the SUN.
mr yup didnt come today. =(
no physics.
had bio. was doing revision on nutrition.
then 3 periods of maths.!
hahas. love it.
had eng after sch.
michy and jx was waiting for me.
michy had her chinese oral. =/
then stayed a lil while at sch.
for a drink. cuz my throat hurts like hell.
then went to buy our fav food. hahas.
maybe its my favourite. hahas.
=))
cause you're everywhere to me.
when i close my eyes its you i see.
everything i know that makes me believe;
im not alone.
i recognise the way you make feel.
its hard to think that you might not be real.
i sense it now; the water's getting deep.
- xiong xiong loves you.
5:43 PM
belindaa
Monday, July 04, 2005
im back.
hahas.
its been some time since i blogged.
gawd.
i didnt know there are such guys tt actually exist.
you shld be really ashame of yourself.
i dont know how you bring yourself to even open your mouth and say that all that stuff.
do you have no shame in yourself?
i pity all those girls man.
sheesh.
NO DIGNITY at all.
NOT EVEN A LIL.
sheesh.
anyway. hahas.
i shall not let such stuff destroy my mood.
WENT TO THE CHOC BAR AT THE ESPLANADE.
OMG. I GAIN LIKE 3 KG THIS 2 MTHS.
hahas. I SERIOUSLY HAVE TO GO FOR A DIET.
and. one more thing,
I HAVE A FETISH FOR GORENG PISANG.
i dunnoe. this is scary.
i've been craving for it.
oh shit.
im starting to cough.
muz be all the food i have been eating.
i mean the amt of choc i ate today.
was crazy man.
hahas.
9:45 PM
belindaa
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
its been 3 days since sch reopen.
its a LONG week man.
everything is like moving in slow motion.
B-O-R-I-N-G.
10:19 PM
belindaa
Monday, June 27, 2005
ITS BEEN A LONG~ TIME.
hahas.
i have been very lazy to update.
hahas.
had been bz.
with tuition and my cousin frm america's visit back here.
hahas.
went to wild wild wet ystday.
hahas. skipped jap class.
=X
went for all the rides.
hahas. with my cousins and my uncle.
hahas. all 6 of us.
we were so funny.
hahas. we all had to like stick to each another.
hehs. and we took the ular-lah ride for like 2 times. hahas. to take a good pic.
hahas.
played for like 4 hours.
=))))
then went back to ah kong's house.
everyone is like sick.
even lil jerald. aww.
got a lil fever.
so aunty carol and me brought him to the doctor's.
he was so funny. hahas. he had the very cute look on his face. hahas.
thought about it for awhile.
hahas.
i thought it wasnt hard to like find a guy who would b really really true.
but wtf man.
ITS LIKE DAMN HARD.
hahas.
i guess there was only 1 that was true.
although we werent strong enough to hold the relationship.
we really got along and stuff. hahas. like going crazy.
we didnt care that we would make a fool out of ourselves.
there is like nothing that we cannot talk about.
and making up funny stuff. hahas.
hahas. and twinkle twinkle lil star.
but such a pity.
we werent strong enough because of some reasons.
hehs. but anyway.!
it was nice memories.
i miss it.. =/
5:06 PM
belindaa
Monday, June 20, 2005
hehs.
woke up at 6.
then went running at tamp stadium.
hahas. =))
its been like 2 weeks since i ran. hahas.
could only ta han 6. =/
你眼睛会笑 弯成一条桥
终点却是我 永远到不了
感觉你来到 是风的呼啸
思念像苦药 竟如此难熬 每分每秒
我找不到 我到不了
你所谓的将来的美好 我什麽都不要
知不知道 若你懂我 这一秒 我想看到 我在寻找
那所谓的爱情的美好 我紧紧的依靠
紧紧守牢 不敢漏掉 一丝一毫 愿你看到
7:45 PM
belindaa
Sunday, June 19, 2005
back from terrible sundays.
hahas.
met michy in the mrt. =D
hahas. we are so fated. wahahas.
=))
i had only 2 hours of sleep.
hahas. cant believe it. i slept at only 6 plus in the morning.
hahas.
argh.
i shouldnt have looked.
me and my curiosity. AH!
now im in the shitty mood.
argh. WTF.
6:23 PM
belindaa
Saturday, June 18, 2005
hahas.
back.
had fun. =))
played pool with michy and hl at pasir ris park.
hahas. play until so shuang. hahas.
then also got this girl come join us. hehs.
really nice girl. hahas. play also very pro. hahas.
i improve alot. wahahs. =X
hmm. had dinner with hl. hahas.
shes such a nice girl.
guess this dinner tog. brought us a lil closer. hahas. =))
i have a new darl. hahas.
argh.
for playing so much.
now i have to make up for it. hahas.
have to go STUDY now. hahas.
8:25 PM
belindaa
Thursday, June 16, 2005
bored.~
later meeting michy for lunch.
haish. sadded. so sian lehs. haish.
somemore, im broke.
is like really no $$ le lehs.
sadded sia.
SO MUCH THINGS TO DO.
SO LITTLE TIME.
10:05 AM
belindaa
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
lalala.~
love this song.
hahas.
me and michy love singing this. hahas.
am at ahkong house.
FINALLY,
my bro is back from camp.!
yeahs.
hahas.
bored bored bored.
chiong amaths juz now.
ahas. FINISHED.!
hahas.
im free of amaths nightmare. waahs. =)
omg.
am at ahkong house.
jerald is such fat baby.
hahas. so cute.
although a lil notti. hahas.
still. hahas. as cute as lil ryan.
5:51 PM
belindaa
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
finally.
something was wrong with blogger.
hmm. so long nv update le.
hehs.
let me see. where did i stop.
hahas. oh yeahs.
hahas.
SATURDAY NITE.
went for a bbq. hehs.
quite fun lars.
hahas. then also play pool. hehs.
then go home about 11 plus.
SUNDAY.
hahas. was the every sunday.
hahas. played badminton at ahkong's house.
hahas. IN JEANS.
hahas. was so hot man. hehs.
ski ski is as cute and lovely as forever.
MONDAY.
went to swim. and play pool.
hahas. was fun.!
TODAY.
boring.
was not allowed to go out. =/
argh.!
6:24 PM
belindaa
Saturday, June 11, 2005
BACK.
FROM SWIMMING AND TANNING.
hahas.
love the sun man.
hahas. the heat.
hahas.
me and michy had fun.
hmm, but quite sadded lars.
no jx darl. =/
hahas. we are goin to compete in who is goin to have the most ear holes when she comes back.
=)
well, got to go out again.
GOING SHOPPING. =))
hahas. and then have a bbq at nite. hahas.
1:21 PM
belindaa
hahas.
its 6.56 now.
hehs.
goin to meet michy soon. =))
hahas. WE ARE GOING SWIMMING.
AND IM GONNA B LATE.
hahas. xp
meeting michy. then meeting jx.
and then to say goodbye to kx darl.
shes goin away for 2 weeks.
hahas.
left me and michy. =/
hahas. but its okay. hahas.
goin to YA KUN for breakfast.
hahas. yeahs! the place me and michy love the most. hahas.
and then, WE ARE GOIN SWIMMING.!
hahas. YEAHS.!!
LURVE SWIMMING.!
heh. =))
i so better go. hahas. IM LATE. =))
6:56 AM
belindaa
Friday, June 10, 2005
WENT TO PLAY BOWLING.
hahas. when was the last time i bowled.
hahas. totally fun.
hahas.
=))
im tired.
rushed through an essay last nite.
and slpt only at 2. =/
sucky.
now i dun have enough slp. argh.
hahas.
got tuition later.
and then. hahas.
goin to play after tt.
since darling jx has to like go to malaysia tml morn.
me and michy decided to soend some time with her. hahas. =)
5:08 PM
belindaa
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
hahas.
my room is PINK.!!
hahas. LOVE IT.
painted it ystday evening.
was really tired.
hahas. painted juz with 2 coats.
nice nice.
=))
had a great day at sch.
hahas. loved maths as usual.
same stupid chem.
and of cuz. PHYSICS.
hahas. had the longest recess.
me, michy and jx took our own sweet time. hahas.
and then aft recess was 2 period of physics.
hahas. me and michy spent time drawing.
hahas. =))
4:11 PM
belindaa
Monday, June 06, 2005
GAWD.
HAHAS.
IM HIGH.
YEAH.
I AM.!
B-A-N-A-N-A YA.!
hahas.
i noe.
you dun get what im saying.
hahas.
listen to hollaback girl by gwen stefani.
hahas.
and you'll noe. =)
8:26 PM
belindaa
back from the horrible sch.
had chem after sch. =/
argh.
didnt have time to come online ystday.
was so bz.
and tired.
love ski ski so much.
such a cute lil thing.
=))
had been doing intensive reading.
madness man. hahas.
cant stop.
its like once u start.
u cant stop.
yeahs. hahas.
watched the lizzie macguire movie at ahgong's house last nite on disney channel.
such movie are nice. hahas.
i dunnoe.
it makes u sweet all over. hahas.
even though u know tt such stuff does not happens.
this is the second times im watching.
love the song.
like this one in my blog.
=/
6:26 PM
belindaa
Saturday, June 04, 2005
my dad went to collect my report ystday.
yup.
the results were atrocious.
well,
I DID STUDIED.
well, i juz have to try much harder.
aiming to do well in my chem.
i mean;
I DUN EVEN KNOW HOW TO BALANCE AN EQUATION.
i seriously need help.
i finally bought my chem tys.
after it was stolen, by some tys-thief.
argh.
i have to stop playing.
hahas.
have been like play bb and stuff.
michy and me plan to like study really hard.
and not let anything distract us.
we seriously have to work very very hard for prelims.
and also improve our eng.
well, we made the first step.
we went to the library and borrowed books.
and YES. we are reading.
hahas.
my life kinda changed.
i met new people,
this kinda exposed me to a larger world.
i dunnoe how to say la.
its like its different.
=/
I sit and wait as an angel contemplate my fate and do they know the places
Where we go when we're grey and old
'Cuz I've been told that salvation lets their wings unfold
So when I'm lying in my bed thoughts are running through my head
And i feel that love is dead
I'm loving angels instead
And through it all
He offers me protection a lot of love and affection
Whether I'm right or wrong and down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me I know that life won't break me
When I come to call He won't forsake me
I'm loving angels instead
When I'm feeling weak and my pain walks down a one way street
I look above
And I know I'll always be blessed with love and as the feeling grows
He breathes flesh to my bones and when the love is dead
I'm loving angels instead
And through it all
He offers me protection a lot of love and affection
Whether I'm right or wrong and down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me I know that life won't break me
When I come to call He won't forsake me
I'm loving angels instead
I'm loving angels instead
And through it all He offers me protection a lot of love and affection
Whether I'm right or wrong and down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me I know that life won't break me
When I come to call He won't forsake me
I'm loving angels instead
9:37 AM
belindaa
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
hahas.
was studying a lil.
hahas.
im like so damn tired.
havent been like slpin early.
hahas. was like talking.
i so have to buck up on my chem.
like, i dun even noe how to balance an eqn.
how bad is tt?
hahas.
if i so wanna obtain 10 points.
i better do better than a 29.
hahas.
i havent been like reading for a LONG time.
so i decided.
its time for me to be back to the books.
like hahas.
i was a lil bookworm a few years ago.
hahas. but i suddenly stopped.
dunnoe y.
OMG.
I JUZ SAW A LIZARD.
AHHS.!
I HATE LIZARDS.
SO BLOODY HATE THEM.
ARGH. THEY LOOK WEIRD.
go go go. go away.
i need to go for a run.
the last time i ran.
was like last week.
hahas. its was 17 rounds.
hahas.
mayb i shall go run later.
hahas. i shall try 20.
hehs.
oh gawd.
im down with a flu.
its the sniffing.
and the headache.
this is BAD. =/
4:54 PM
belindaa
Sunday, May 29, 2005
came up with a conclusion.
i was cheated.
yup.
i think lars.
im being paranoid again.
but its true lars.
im like some sensitive bitch.
hahas.
I CANT HELP IT.
juz came back from jap lesson.
was like so stressful.
i lost the jap touch alr.
hahas. my sentences are so distaughted.
my chinese is so crap.
i dunnoe how am i goin to go through this.
but i will try my best.
I WILL.
and dun worry darls.
im FINE.
hahas.
stop thinking the i will break down and cry.
and yeah yeah. i noe.
the truth hurts.
hahas.
but im still okay.
hahas.
STOP THINKING I WILL CRY.
cause i didnt.
yup.
anyways.
back to the main point.
im so gonna do well for this paper.
i have to.
i so bloody have to.
was talking to this person last nite.
was telling me.
dun b pulled down by setbacks.
hahas.
i admit sometimes i think this person is a lil childish.
but then there are some times when u can really c some sense in him.
there are times u'll b suprised abt the stuff he says.
he says things that really made sense and i had never really thought abt it.
hahas.
SO HERE I AM.
STANDING STRONG.
i had pulled down before.
but i stood up in the end.
anyway, thanks u lil bastard. hahas. x)
although u seem really irritating and noisy.
AND A BULLY.
its still 3 : 1
I WIN. =)
5:29 PM
belindaa
Saturday, May 28, 2005
back.
hahas. went to play bb with my bro.
hahas.
=))
damn tired.
hahas.
goin out soon.
YEAH.
hahas. goin SHOPPING.
im loving it. hahas.
12:07 PM
belindaa
Friday, May 27, 2005
its over.
feelings faded.
yup. =/
well, everything has to come to an end right?
even love. hahas.
gosh.
had a call from miss salinah.
fauzah is in hospital.
low blood pressure or something.
hope she gets well soon.
anyways.
got another fantastic sky pic i took this morning again.
while i was changing. hahas.
not as orangy as the previous one.
but this is like special.
and oh yah.
heard from my ah mei abt something.
for goodness sake.
girls out there.
stop distroying ur beautiful skin by cutting yourself juz because of guys.
not worth it.
sure will regret in the future de.
what for put urself into so much pain?
think abt it yeah?
nearly died-ed today.
hahas.
me and jx went to look for michy.
pass hw to her.
then sat at her house downstairs.
hahas.
then suddenly edwind also come.
he stay same block mahs.
then we tok tok tok.
suddenly.
mr ong appear.
wah. he standing behind edwind.
hahas. then we tell him mr ong behind he dun believe.
then he like dun dare to turn.
then when he turn he saw mr ong he like jump abit.
hahas. so funny.
wahs. heng heng. he nv scold us ahs.
hahas.
he juz ask what we doing here.
hahas.
then nothing le.
hahas. so funny lehs.
wah. tot will kena caught for loitering.
in the end nv kena.
hahas.
siao siao lehs.
wahs. there also can c untill mr ong.
10:10 PM
belindaa
Thursday, May 26, 2005
当世界只剩下这床头灯
你那边是早晨已经出门
我侧身感到你在转身
无数陌生人正在等下一个绿灯
一再错身彼此脆弱的时分
如果渴望一个吻的余温
我关了灯黑暗把我拼吞
你不在当我最需要爱你却不在
无尽等待像独白般难挨
你不在高兴还是悲哀你都不在
我受了伤在偷偷好起来
但你不在不在
时间再按下许多次快门
沉默里听见转动的秒针 一个人吃饭这个凌晨 孤单一人份
你低声说你有别人
我的话筒只有自己的体温
怎样认真也不一定成真
你说的对我不得不承认
你不在当我最需要爱你却不在
无尽等待像独白的难挨
你不在高兴还是悲哀你都不在
我受了伤再偷偷好起来但你不在
那些摇摆我都明白都明白
但你不在爱已不在不在
你不在当我最需要爱你却不在
一个人分饰两角的恋爱
你不在高兴还是悲哀你都不在
像空气般不存在的存在
再没有痕迹的爱你不在
当我需要你的爱你不在
10:06 AM
belindaa
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
michy is sick.
poor thing.
hahas.
im gonna b sick soon. argh. =/
im aching all over.
conclusion; not very clever to do intensive running.
BUT IT WAS FUN.
bio prac. sucks.
hahas.
as usual.
didnt now what the hell i was doing.
wahhas.
was playing this game.
hahas.
IM ADDICTED TO IT.
OH GOSH.
hahas.
im so gonna stick to the com. xp
9:18 PM
belindaa
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
yeah baby.
hahas.
back from running.
wif mich and then jx.
ran abt 15 rounds then my bro and his senior came and disturb.
hahas.
ran 17 rounds straight.
6800m.
yeah.
hahas. so love the feeling.
wind blowing at my face.
all the tiredness making me forget all my troubles. =/
hahas.
aft tt went to 7-11 with my bro and michy.
hehs.
had a lil bro and sis talk.
hahas. bonding i guess.
hahas.
got my specs.
I LOOK SO KUKU.
but then hors.
really lehs.
i c with specs its like so much clearer los.
haish.
i look so kuku nana.
hahas.
too bad.
i have to wear it.
IM STICK TO IT.
argh.
10:39 PM
belindaa
michy is at my house now.
hahas. taking pictures.
YEAH.
IM GOIN TO RUN.
YEAH BABY.
hahas.
so miss the wind blowing at my face.
hahas.
im back to the track.
hahas.
woke up this morning.
and saw the sky.
omg.
it was nice.
like strips of orangey rainbow across the sky.
hahas.
have blisters on my feet.
hahas.
due to ystday's badminton game at my ahkong house.
the floor was like so hot.
hahas. its been such a long time since i was active.
hahas.
was jumping and jumping.
then now my arms are aching.
hahas.
after tt.
went to east coast park.
hahas.
with lil ryan. 2 other lil rascals and my uncle and aunty.
WE WENT CYCLING.
hahas. was so fun.
hahas.
but then again. my tighs are aching.
BUT I DUN CARE.
IM STILL GONNA RUN.
target for today: 12 rounds.
wahahs.
I WILL DO IT.
xD
6:05 PM
belindaa
Saturday, May 21, 2005
OH GAWD.
OH NO.
i have to wear specs.
argh.
its not short sightedness.
its like astigmatism.
and i cant wear contacts.
argh.
im not goin the wear the specs all the time.
juz gonna wear it when i have to look at the board.
hahas.
i look so kuku nana in specs.
chose a very simple one.
didnt want to make it striking or anything.
attract lesser attention.
hahas.
heng.
nxt week the go take.
hahas. so its like sch close alr.
but then again.
sch holiday still have to go back to sch. =/
AHH!
11:06 PM
belindaa